What disappoints me

I have a characteristic naivete of  faithful expectation from the people I usually spent time throughout the day, deeply ingrained within me, that they are capable of seeing what I see as very apparent, in almost every context. This may be due to the fact that I talk in terms of everyday affairs taking place in our immediately close environment. I take it for granted that as everything is open in front of everyone's eyes, they must be seeing it without missing the details which are rather obvious to me. There is also the fact that I see that I have developed myself to be quite a fine talker having the faculty of delineating things with kind of vibrant lucidity. The psychological insight I have developed in course of my thorough reading in diverse fields, which amounts to quite a thorough interdisciplinary study of the various issues concerning raw human life as far as its fundamental issues are concerned, helps me often get an idea of the predilections of person or persons  I am talking to, and hence almost always can channelise the discussions towards a very meaningful brainstorming sessions on the fundamental issues of human life. But the one crucial drawback of my aptitude I have mentioned above often, if not almost always leads things to kind of disappointing outcome - and of course it comes out to be disappointing for me !! If I have my deeply ingrained naivete, others have their idiosyncrasies, very deep rooted cognitive biases, inhibitions, unrealistic fears, insecurities etc. which, in most cases prevent us i.e. me and others from reaching to some kind concurrent point of view, upon which we agree unequivocally. I, admittedly, almost invariably, miss out one single point - that is others do not really see why I see; while others often miss out plethora of the nuances of a certain scenario or a topic on which we would be having the conversation, that I can appreciate. So there always remains a hiatus, an abyss between me and the world. Often people do not have a very pliant mind, often they are rigid about their attitude towards a certain scenario or state of affairs. Blinkered and short term thinking habits are ubiquitous. And there is the great shortcoming of any social system - heuristics and trends. These aspects of the problem of communication remain strewn around like lump impedances which disrupt the flow of ideas and information as well - leading to broken and failed communication. I fail to remember that me and others often are not in the same vantage point - this fact is there as well.

All the above, almost all the time,  amounts to the same great disappointment for me - finally I fail to reach others; efforts do not pay. My energy remits all the same - but output remains unsatisfactory. I always have the test of failure left for my own self. Must be, at times others also feel like me. But the noumenon remains the same.

The matter of greater concern is the fact that this leads all the way down the vicious cycle - it reinforces the differences between me and the world in every occasion of such failure. It spirals down the abyss and the abyss becomes larger. Disappointment and pessimism keeps looming large over me.

And finally that is what disappoints me.